The Welshman with a Odd Accent in Oakwood

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Tue, 14 Jun 2005 00:10:21 +0200

dear blog

how are you today? maybe i've just gone nuts, am i talking to my computer? You know they say the first sign of madness is talking to yourself the second sign is answering yourself back and it's time to give up when you have a good conversation with yourself!!

Today has been a pretty great day, the whole day was on the Doctrine of Prayer and the application of prayer which was really convicting that my prayer life it pretty pants at the moment, i think i need to sort it out!

Anyway i'm off to bed, before i convince myself i'm mad or not.

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Sunday June 12

Sun, 12 Jun 2005 21:28:27 +0200

Dear blog

I find Sundays challenging, odd you may think as Sunday is the main day in the Church week, but no being a Christian and always being salt & light in the Church when you work for the church if find challenging.

It’s been a long day, from 9am until 8:30pm with little break, I worked some on my Exodus talk for next week at SCF, it’s a privilege to speak there but am getting more nervous, that much of what I’ve written may be seen as patronizing or even over peoples heads. I also am still struggling with Romans.

Anyway my dear blog, I feel the need to relax and rest before tomorrow,

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Saturday June 11

Sat, 11 Jun 2005 23:22:42 +0200

My dear blog

Today has been a typical Saturday, I find it very difficult to motivate my self on Saturdays, years have told my body that Saturday is a day off and now working Saturdays becomes a struggle, both physically and in my humility.

I started work on Romans 2:12-3:20 again and got a structure written by mid day and a rough draft written by late evening, annoyingly it took a long time and I’m not sure it is correct as it stands.

Anyway I must relax some and tomorrow hopefully I will be able to look at Exodus again and write a prayer letter.

For now dearest blog.

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Friday, June 10

Sat, 11 Jun 2005 23:19:37 +0200

My dear blog

I didn't get around to writing to you yesterday. I got caught up in trying to get other things finished which I didn’t get any of done; my Fridays are a bit like nitro glycerine, they are find most of the time but don’t take much to throw them off then all goes to pot. Yesterday things very nearly went to pot, I was challenged in my humility when looking at Romans, my patience was challenged in my contact and I was challenged all in all to continue growing in holiness.

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Thursday June 9

Fri, 10 Jun 2005 00:58:30 +0200

Ah, my day off, if any day I’m likely to struggle and be ungracious then it’s a Thursday, feeling very much the time is my own and shouldn’t be interrupted. After shopping I came home to find my flatmate watching TV, my first reaction was to go a bit nuts and make a few comments, I made a comment, felt immediately bad but then realized it’s exactly what I do anyway and felt massively convicted!

I must really struggle on to smile and to be gracious.

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Wednesday June 8

Fri, 10 Jun 2005 00:58:10 +0200

Today felt like a test, I knew I needed to challenge myself and was being challenged by others to show an improved attitude especially at the weekly meeting. It really was a challenge; I guess that’s all I can say.

Wednesdays are pretty busy but fairly mundane, 9-7 going from meeting to group to group, with only a few breaks but it’s a nice to do and meet people. I felt totally out of my depth in a gospel conversation which was strange and strongly convicting that I shouldn’t be!!

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June 7

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 00:34:52 +0200

CTC was great today; more gems of great doctrine from Paul in 1 Corinthians although I didn’t stay around for gobbits which I feel pretty bad about, I got a phone call and had to change some of the church publicity stuff, rather annoying, will be a relief when the guy finally posts it!

I tried to have a quiet time on the tube this morning, note to self, the tube is not quiet!! I also borrowed Ryle’s ‘Holiness’, guess the Holy thing would be to read it and act upon it now!

In HG we looked at Acts 12 and Peter’s release from prison, more bad doctrines of angels and Catholicism came out which is rather shocking but I hope their getting less, a major argument on ecumenicalism and multi faith projects was avoided luckily .. phew!

Anyway my dear blog must get on as they say.

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Monday June 6

Mon, 06 Jun 2005 23:02:05 +0200

To my dear blog.

Today felt like the calm after the storm, but it did an uneasy calm, not being quite sure if the waters had settled, knowing that I’m still a long way from shore.

Last nights meeting still smarts, and I woke up this morning thinking ‘actually it isn’t my fault after all’ then realized that’s much of my problem I don’t accept responsibility for my problems.

It was a long day at CTC, 1 Corinithans 10 & 11 is a challenging passage looking about the legalism in the church and the famous passage on God not tempting us beyond what we can bear, meaning that we will indeed face temptation but God always has and always will provide a way out – him, will have to read up on that passage sometime soon, had a gr8 and honest lunch with my friends then a sleepy afternoon – note to self, stop sleeping in afternoon.

I think there are three major things I must work on in the coming weeks, not even months but weeks,

My personal holiness, striving to know God more and to serve him more through good quite times,
My service her for the crew I work for, including my attitude being one centred on God not on my own wants.
Healing the relationships I have damaged

I tried to understand Romans 2:12 – 3:20 today on the tube and got very little understanding more than a pebble in an ocean kind of understanding!

rhys

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Sunday June 5th

Mon, 06 Jun 2005 01:24:47 +0200

Dear Blog,

I look foward to my dear blog becoming a good friend and a good way of being accountable to all who know me over the next years.

The first entry unfortunatly is annoyingly painful,

The day started off well, you know the thing rushing to get ready for church, making sure i had all my things to be around church by 9, feeling uncomfortably dressed in chinos and jacket (I was leading)

I made a few silly mistakes leading, surprise surprise, most we're down to my sheer lack of preperation the evening before such as praying for the speaker not the word spoken, note to self not to do that again!

The afternoon was spent at a friends for lunch, it was great to catch up and get some honest down to earth advice, about a girl i know.

The evening well, another talk, this time a 15 minute talk which seemed to last for much longer, hopefully the big point was clear 'God Saves' well i guess that's the point of the bible, the big point was slightly less clear 'God leads, God Saves, God is to be Praised' on the crossing of the redsea in Exodus.

Then a truthfully painful chat with Christopher, he was very honest about my attitute being a stinking one at times, especially towards my flat mate, i must indeed strive to improve this and be thankful that i have good enough friends to point it out to him when i don't listen, so thank you to those people!

Anyway I must go, and be on with another day tommorow.

oh yeah don't expect too much exitement here! or jokes, or good grammer & spelling.

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